I started keeping a pregnancy journal with my 8th baby. I didn't write in it as much as I wish I would have and it is hand written. Then with my 9th baby I started a pregnancy journal on CUC. And of course with my last pregnancy I started this pg blog to journal through my pregnancies until I am no longer blessed which I hope is a long time away.
Anyway I thought it would be neat to post here what I wrote about at this same point in my previous pg's. So here are a few posts from previous pregnancies...
my pregnancy with my dd ZaraLayna; my 9th baby born in 2005..
Mon Apr 18, 2005
18 weeks
I am 18 weeks two days today. Everything is going well. I am measuring just slightly less than the full 18 weeks. Since I am not sure exactly when conception was this measurement leads me to the conclusion that my due date is right. I have the ultrasound coming up in a few weeks and perhaps I will know even more then. Baby's heartrate is still about 156. Sometimes it is slightly less but usually about this rate. I am hearing two heartbeats down low by pubic bone on either side but took the rates today with my oldest dd help and they were one beat difference counting for 15 seconds. 38 and 39 were the counts. There has been a greater difference other times but I am pretty sure it's just one and baby is moving causing heartbeats to increase or slow down depending. I was thinking twins and since I have had them I was really hoping it was twins again but nope just one. I was pretty sad after I got my hopes up but after praying and realizing that one baby is just as much a blessing I am feeling much better. I prayed for this little one and Hashem blessed me. How ungrateful it would be for me to not be happy with only having one. I have to trust that if He gave me one than it's His will for me. And I can trust Him with that. He has my best at heart!! :)I am still praying for a little girl this time. Hoping that the heartbeat rate works again for us as it has so far with all of our children. But I am also praying that I will be able to conform myself to His will. If He blesses me with a boy I want to conform myself to the baby he has for us and accept this blessing from His hand with happiness and gratefulness. May I accept whatever baby He has for us! My heart so longs for a little girl to fill that empty space left when RuthAnne passed but if this baby is a boy than there is a plan for that little life also. I am taking Hawthorn and Gingko Biloba; two in the morning and two at night of each. They will help with blood circulation and heart palpitations. Although I am not having them too often anymore. Also they will keep the blood pressure at a good level. I am not too worried about that as I have never had high blood pressure when pg or when I am not. I have experienced what I have read and discovered to be called "white coat syndrome". I work myself into such a state of anxiety that my blood pressure readings are much higher than normal. This is what this syndrome is. The readings are higher than normal because the person gets anxious before the reading. I get so annoyed at myself. It's so silly and I am hoping that I can get past this but in the meantime I am leaving it in Hashem's hands. Worrying about it does nothing but cause more anxiety. And scripture tells us not to worry but to bring everything before Hashem in prayer and His peace will guard our hearts and minds. Awwww....sweet peace!! Thank you Hashem for this precious life you have given us!! And my last baby # 10; JaidenNoah..........
Saturday, 12 May 2007
I wish I could take some time to just go off by myself along with my unborn child and my thoughts. It seems like life has been so hectic and busy that I have had no time just to be a pregnant mama. To actually let myself enjoy each and every wonderful, amazing and sometimes not so amazing moments of being with child. I want to take the time to meditate on this new life growing inside of me and think of all the many possibilities of what this child's life will become. Who will this person be?
But reality pops back in and I know I can't get away: alone. There are so many little ones needing me here. So many things calling my name. So I grasp ahold of the small moments when the house is quiet and I think about the baby and the changes happening in my body. I think of my swirling emotions. I wonder when I will begin to feel baby alot as opposed to now and then? I go back over each pregnancy trying to remember when this amazing change takes place. And I pray and ask for another kick and another. I count them each. One, two, three.............. Soon I will be kept awake when I want to sleep with baby kicks.........I know the day is coming and I pray for it.
Making sure baby grows along with mama. Measuring and palpating. cm tape. 19 weeks. Doing fine with a week and a half to spare..........
Mamas stretched uterus giving baby lots of room to move. Always a little ahead.
Back to wondering what will this person be? the baby's color hair? baby's eyes? The sweet smell of babies. Soon!
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